EMOTIONAL.

have been pretty emotional recently.
emotional dont equals to emo. ((:
just that im thinking about things.
perhaps. its becos im too tired.
perhaps. cos im too busy with school and training.
and my favourite pastime is starting to be STONING.
i love to stare into space like every now and then.
its the only time i can empty my brain.
and stop thinking about everything and anything.

i felt stupid.
becos im holding on to something which will never belong to me again. i guess.
sometimes i will ask myself, 'minyi. why are you so dumb? you must learn to let go.'
but when circumstances requires me to let go, i cant. im a failure in letting go. total failure.
it took me a lot of courage to tag in your blog and even start a conversation with you.
cos that's the only way i dare to talk you now.
cos if i see you, i'll cry. idk why. but i will.
i wont even dared look at you. so i wont even try to start a conversation.
call me a weakling. becos i love to cry.
but i dont think crying makes someone a weakling.
crying is just another way to express one's feelings.
a way which is way better than being angry.
im stupid. i got a lot of choices.
but i chose you. and kept on with it for so long.
i know it wont work out. but i still cant let go.
okay. im stupid. im dumb.
if there's ever tests or examinations on relationships, i will fail badly. very badly.

there's just too much things going on around me.
and i dont have the time to capture every single event.

like at home.
for this week, im home for around 48 hours only. for the whole entire week.
that's how busy i am now.
furthermore, mid sem test is just one week away.
and i havent even start my revision. not a single bit larh.

gosh.
guess i can only blame it on my proscrastination, laziness and poor time management skill.
MINYI! YOU CAN DO BETTER! (:
STOP PROSCRASTINATING, BEING LAZY AND START MANAGING MY TIME WELL!
if not, even if i have 48 hours a day, i'll still be complaining that i have not enough time.
JIA YOU! (: