dad. you are so ridiculous.

dad. you are very ridiculous.
fuck man.
the moment i woke up, my dad started scolding me like mad.
its not as if i dont want to look for a job lerh.
but im still in the process of looking for one lorh.
and when i told you that im looking for one.
you said, 'staring at the com everyday will get you a job meh?'
like hello uncle. there's online job sites lorh.
things that you dont know about their existance exist okay.

and you just kept saying that i never help with the housechores lorh.
i did help, okay.
you just love to disregard things i did at home.
how many teens are helping at home?
not many nowadays, okay.
and im already starting to help a little bit more nowadays.
but you dont see them and so you assume that i dint help.
i hate you, dad.

now you are saying that you dont want to give me my allowance anymore.
if i want, i can ask my mum for it.
and the amount depends on how much she want to give.
you even start saying that i can quit school if i want to.
in your eyes, you think im not very hardworking.
yes, i know. im not that hardworking.
but im not those people that hates school okay.
i know the importance of education and that cert that we graduate with.
so stop saying all these nonsense larh.

now you say you wanna stay out of the house as much as possible.
BRAVO! cause i dont need to fear that you may get angry and start scolding anyone at home(which is only me) again.
my life will be so much better.

you just love to assume things.
and you treat things that you assume as the truth.
now, im penniless. if my mum doesnt gives me allowances.
its okay. nvm.
i can jian fei.
and i'll be out of your dictatorship. out of your control.
i cant wait. seriously.

and with him being so nonsensical, he is just telling me that my mum is still the best! :D
she is so much more understanding lorh.
i went complaining to her just now on msn.
and she just listened to me rant.
she, herself, also give up to my dad's temperamental temper.
sometimes, i think that my dad needs mental assistance lorh.
she keep telling me to complain to my grandmum.
but i think complain to president or prime minister also no use lorh.
my ah ma will only go, 'huh. how come he like that?'
then nothing will be change.
argh.
i envy my brother sia.
cos he's only at home during weekends.
my dad wont have the chance to blow up on him.
cos everyone's at home during the weekends.
maybe i should really start having a part-time job lorh.
but i'll have to forgo a lot of things like cheer.
cause i dont think i can manage. argh.
but i dont wanna quit cheer lorh.
what can i do man?
how i wish money can drop from the sky?

i love you, mum! :D