i just wanna cry & cry like there's no tomorrow.

okay ken. im updating my blog. (:
kinda shocked that you'll still visit my blog cos i think i disappoint you too much. but thanks brother! :D

so lets start from yesterday.
sophie msged me in the morning to ask me to go out with her. so i did.
went for an impromptu haircut. i cut my hair away. SHORT!

before.

after. :D

yes. i cut my hair away. :D dont be shocked when you see me. sophie says i look fresher. hahaha. ;D
& we went to bugis to hunt for bag. she wanted to buy a bag larh.
but in the end, she went home with a shoe. but not bag. hahaha.
but anyway, that girl is really determined to start anew. maybe one fine day i may do the same. (:

den backtracked to friday.
had school then home. skipped training. cos i dont feel like going.
after disappointing & making so many people angry, im scared & dont know how to face them.
im in a big dilema now.
i miss those times when we can play & do stupid things together. i really do miss. but looks like its never going to be the same ever again. after all my stupid rushed decisions.
cheerleading was my passion & is still my passion. something which i wanna excel in, other than studies. i wanna train hard with them. i wanna improve with them. but everytime, i'll back out last minute. why am i like that?! WHY?! i seriously hate the not determined me. where is the determined minyi whom i used to be? where has she gone to? :( sorry blazers.

thursday was spent rotting at home. cos i was too tired to get myself out of the house. (:

wednesday was school den qinghui's birthday celebration.
caught IRON MAN. its nice lerh. it surely worth my money. (:
give it a 4.5/5. :D went to boat quay to chill.
& we paraded up down the street before settling down at jazz@southbridge, again. hahaha.
went to kbox after drinking. dint really sing. but vanga seriously is one funny chap. he can sing darn high pinch larh. wonder if he had a sore throat the day after. LOL.
as for the photos. will post it when in the mood to post photos. (:

& tuesday night. i skipping training, again. so i dint turn up for any training days this week.
went to town with my parents at night & had suki sushi for dinner. *yums!

im such a loser now. my life is so messed up. & im so tired to tidy it.
guys are such a troublesome thing. can't they just leave me alone?
im messy enough & dont need anyone to add on to my mess. im tired. i am.
elmo. its back with me now. :(
i just wanna cry & cry like there's no tomorrow.